"Hopecore videos at two in the morning" lyrics

I don't wanna bruise myself and abuse my self, thinking what am I dope for
I don't wanna built myself just to kill myself, let me binge that hopecore
I just wanna find myself, when I pry myself, shit I act like I know more
I've been tryna guide myself when I'm by myself going mad, it's a cold war

Serotonin stays inconsistent
I can't forget what I did and didn't
I spend two years tryna fix the image
But might get back being insufficient, okay
Can I just lift the sickness and risk my life on a split decision?
Abandon the shame, will the fam forgive me?
Give a fuck about a lame when we stand on business, okay
Who the fuck said I'm insane?
I'm not the way that they see me, put that on my government name
I lost a year of my life to an evil I cannot explain
Tell me if your whole world burn would you still be the same?