"Nightmares of the past" lyrics

I wrote this story in a few pages
Went from love to white lines and some blue faces
Now I'm tripping over drugs, baby, who laced them?
You said I did it to myself, what a cruel statement
And that was supposed to be your big night
I started coughing, glass shattered in my wind pipe
Getting cold sweats, body numb, you told me sit tight
I waited for a couple of days
Weeks pass, trust leaves and the anger invades
Was overthinking 'bout the future but had nothing to say
I didn't wanna jump the gun and misfire
Nine dead from big fires
I ignited while my life was in flames
Then you finally came around and told me I was to blame
Your words were like electric chairs, and they were frying my brain
Thought everybody bled the same but you were dyeing my veins
And said my life needed change
I really tried to be great
But now I'm dying in vain
(And it's so strange)
I'd never thought I'd switch for a bitch like you
I'd never thought I'd sip take a hit like you
Bump a line, double time, getting lit like you
I never thought I'd dream of a girl like you
Nightmares, getting scared of a girl like you
Last night swear I saw one girl, she looked just like you
Everybody looking just like you, yeah