"Afterlife" lyrics

Speaking in past tense
Splitting up dashes into the new year
What can I do here?
Where was my warning early that morning?
Wish I had seen it, I wish I could be her

If grief is a part of love, then I'll love no more
I've had enough, I cannot watch my mother cry
I cannot find the afterlife, I'm not as sure as I used to be
That I'm not afraid of the end of me
I'll live and die this way

It's never the right time, a spiraling pipeline
Up in my bedroom, I can still hear you
It's one of those things you know but don't want to
Truth is I'm screaming, still hoping I'm dreaming

If grief is a part of love, then I'll love no more
I've had enough, I cannot watch my mother cry
I cannot find the afterlife, I'm not as sure as I used to be
That I'm not afraid of the end of me
I'll live and die this way

If grief is a part of love, then I'll love no more
I've had enough, I cannot watch my mother cry
I cannot find the afterlife, I'm not as sure as I used to be
That I'm not afraid of the end of me
I'll live and die this way

I'll live and die this way