"Looking Dead At The Function" lyrics

The motivation's gone by morning, I mean soon as I wake up
All the things I said I'd change about myself last night are null
I could begin, or I could do myself right in
I guess today, the day before seems I'd rather close the door

I'd love to know why it seems like I'm doing it all to myself
I'd love to believe, but I know me too well
Like I'd cry, like I'd leave this behind, but, oh well
I guess I'm under my spell

I told the doctor, "I'm uneasy," he never told me why
I'll take the chance to let that go, and steep in sadness 'til I die
I can't allow for a moment of relief
Like a clock of self-deceit, it seems I'm always on repeat

I'd love to know why it seems like I'm doing it all to myself
I'd love to believe, but I know me too well
Like I'd cry, like I'd leave this behind, but, oh well
I guess I'm under my spell