"Not Hell, Not Heaven" lyrics

All I wanted was protection
Now the rage starts to eat at me
Bite that tongue, disconnect it
Should I learn how to shut my mouth?

Medicated, it's out of my system
Bitter taste of security
In the end, will this answer my question?
If not Hell, if not Heaven?

Like the oceans, like the sea
I'm possessed, you'll drown in me
Listen, hear all Hell unleashed
That's the sound of reckoning

The guilt will swallow you up
Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising
The way it's eating me alive, oh
The guilt will swallow you up
Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising
And my, my voice
It shakes, it burns
It licks the lips of doubt and finds you on your knees

My dreams call for blood now
You'll see that there's no way out
These dreams call for blood now
You'll see there's no way out

Just lie in the bed that you made
Let truth burn holes in the sheet
Set fire and set you free
Swallow you like it did me

Like the oceans, like the sea
I'm possessed, you'll drown in me
Listen, hear all Hell unleashed
That's the sound of reckoning

The guilt will swallow you up
Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising
The way it's eating me alive, oh
The guilt will swallow you up
Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising
And my, my voice
It shakes, it burns
It licks the lips of doubt and finds you on your knees

It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven
It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven
It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven
It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven
It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven
It's not Hell, it's not really Heaven

The guilt will swallow you up
Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising
The way it's eating me alive, oh
The guilt will swallow you up
Sage, it's lilac, it's bloody, it's bruising
And my, my voice