"Special" lyrics

Caught running away again
Thought by now I'd figured out
The hell of my undoing
It's desperation to feel alive

I don't wanna be special
Just tell them a lie
I don't wanna be different
Just to stay alive
You just wanna hear my screams
Just to feel alive
Bring me back to my body

Is it in vain to think I'm worthy
Of standing for something (Lost faith, didn't want it)
More than a body (Didn't want things to be this way)
I am nothing (Lost faith, didn't want it)
I am everything (I can tell by the look on your face)
Failure finding (You lost faith, you didn't want this)
Balance in philosophy (Felt shame now you're running away?)
I am nothing (You lost faith, you didn't want it)
I am everything (Didn't want things to be this way)

I don't wanna be special
Just tell them a lie
I don't wanna be different
Just to stay alive
You just wanna hear my screams
Just to feel alive
Bring me back to my body

Didn't really wanna be myself
Now I never wanna see myself
Didn't really wanna be myself
Now I never wanna see myself
And I wanted to scream all the things that you do
When you're talking to me and manipulating
And I know I'm no angel, I think that's okay
I need you to feel something, sick and tired of waiting

I don't wanna be special
Just tell them a lie
I don't wanna be different
Just to stay alive
You just wanna hear my screams
Just to feel alive
Bring me back to my body