"PRETTY RISQUÉ UNDERTONES I'LL NEVER ALLEVIATE" lyrics

Making this music but I'm not a prodigy
Demons they pop up at night to say hi to me
Not a role model I run away constantly
Honestly don't know why y'all nigga rock wit me

Self esteem glass, fragile as fuck
Douse me in gas fire me up
One day I'm godly, next day I suck
Think of me fondly but I'm corrupt

Wonder through life I don't know what I'm doin'
Quarantine speeding up time it be zoomin'
Family fractured it always been ruined
So I just focus on me and keep moving

My circle small could fit in my fist
Me and my bae few friends that's it
Music been booming and growing legit
But when I'm low, I still wanna quit

She told me baby don't leave
I told her I won't but inside I'm lonely
Lies all in throat stabbing me so I bleed
Don't worry when I'm gone I'll leave my royalties

I'm in love with everything bad so sad
I'm in love with everything I know I'll never have
I'm in love with reminiscing bout the bitter past
I'm in love with watching everything around me crash
I'm in love with

I fell in love with a dream
Whenever you in it things turning obscene
I want more fans but I hate the attention
I love but I hate you you're my contradiction
I'm losing track of my mission
Been dealing with headaches extreme double vision
My vices and life had a head on collision
Can't make a decision
Purgatory I just float in suspension

Senpai living in dream state
Tell me who relates
Every mask that I wear fake
Can't catch a break
I don't wanna see hell's gates
But if I do I will understand it's fate

Always in love with a time of the year that I shouldn't be
Can't escape dreams that I have so vividly
Wish I could rewrite change it easily
But honestly if I did be a bad thing

All my bad habits
Made all the malice collect in my chalice
Thoughts always phallic
Just wanna give you the world, diamonds, pearls and a palace
Might be psychotic my feelings robotic
I'm programmed for caring too much I can't stop it
Everything toxic

I'm in love with everything bad so sad
I'm in love with everything I know I'll never have
I'm in love with reminiscing bout the bitter past
I'm in love with watching everything around me crash
I'm in love with

Yeah

Pretty risqué undertones I'll never alleviate
My overly rancid sexualized understanding someday yeah