"the hand that mocked me and the heart that fed me" lyrics

What if I was right and you were wrong
Would it change the way you think about me
Or did I make you feel like you were drowning
At the wheel I'm drowsy
From the pills that I've been downing
Trying to hide from everyone including you

The rush, it fades away
Don't know if I can say
What's really on my mind
Girl, you were such a dream
But I'm leaving you behind
Maybe it's your pride
How could you look me in my eyes
And turn away like you never even see my face at all

I'm gonna start the second Xan
Cool kids stay away from drugs