"Phantom Pain" lyrics

Why do I gain strength by losing energy?
I realized I wanna be my own worst enemy
These are the first words that are leaving my mouth in a long time
Kept them sealed in my mind

I miss the place where I was born
That makes looking at the world the way that I do
It's always been my father
We've never been further away from each other
At the same time never closer

Present days
Go their ways
Faster than the dreams you chase
I'm alright, are you alright?
I think that I am doing just fine
I'm rather worried
'Bout your state of mind
Then to clean my own mess
No good strategy
I slowly feel the heat coming after me

This kid, he looks for roots
By burning trees
Ashes of leaves covering
Crumbled up anxieties
Where was his mother
The first weeks of his life?
The story of his birth
Is how his mother almost died

Present days
Go their ways
Faster than the dreams you chase
I'm alright, are you alright?
And I think that I am doing just fine
I'm rather worried
'Bout your state of mind
Then to clean my own mess
No good strategy
I slowly feel the heat coming after me

Yeah
Fuck

Why do I gain strength by losing energy?
I realized I wanna be my own worst enemy
These are the first words that are leaving my mouth in a long time
Kept them sealed in my mind