"Baby Magic" lyrics

One second you're gone, but then the next you're coming back
And up until now I didn't care and I was fine with that
But you texted and you told me you liked when my hair was red
So I close my eyes and suddenly I'm sleeping in your bed

Back in Anna Jaques you said they wouldn't let you shower
By yourself
Wish I could have stole the list and wrote my number
Way back in McLeans a was a ghost inside my body
Walk the halls a renegade to everyone who loved me

And I
Felt dead
To you
Till then
No I felt dead
To all my friends
And maybe I still do

Growing up is hard when you've got scars like in the movies
Tell the boy I'm having sex with "no, you never need to worry"
I was young I was impulsive
Born with fire in my belly
I'm not broken anymore I'd never call you up to fix me

January's cutting in like cop lights in the rearview
I watched a couple movies and remembered that I love you
And I miss my friend Amanda that I met back in the psych ward
I wish I could have stayed so she could teach me how to skateboard

And I
Felt dead
To you
Till then
No I felt dead
To all my friends
And maybe I still do

Angry at the virus cuz I miss taking the train
Way up to Boston, pass through Ipswich and the tunnels of my brain
And when I pass the hospital I think about my mother
And I think of baby magic me with nothing to surrender

And I
Felt dead
To you
Till then
No I felt dead
To all my friends
And maybe I still do