"feel it" lyrics

This is where we're at now, ever since you freed me
I try keeping composure, but look at how you treat me
You know I didn't want to hate you
But you've been eating at me slowly
'Cause every time I think that I'm ready to forgive you
You find a way to show me

That you don't care if I'm okay
And there's no world where you'd take blame
And you don't see the hurt that's chained
To every inch of me now

So could you come back
To you body, baby
Just for one sec
Say you're sorry
You don't have to mean it, mean it
But you should have to feel it, feel it
And could you calm down
From whatever high it is that you've been on now
And treat me like my heart is still beating, beating
'Cause I still have to feel it, feel it

Pull me deep into the context
It will never change your choices
Tell me, do you understand that
I didn't disappear when you decided to avoid it
You know, I didn't want to hate you
But you're making it the safe route
'Cause I wasted all my breath, and hoping you'd regret
How you'd keep letting me down

And you don't care if I'm okay
There's no world where you'd take blame
And you don't see the blood red paint
That's spilled all over me now

So could you come back
To you body, baby
Just for one sec
Say you're sorry
You don't have to mean it, mean it
But you should have to feel it, feel it
And could you calm down
From whatever high it is that you've been on now
And treat me like my heart is still beating, beating
'Cause I still have to feel it, feel it

You're never gonna get that light
You're never gonna know if I've been doing better
You're never gonna know that I'm bleeding, bleeding
And I'll still have to feel it, feel it
Acting like you said goodbye, and I stopped existing
You can breath in easy, watch me shrink
And you see it, see it
But I still have to feel it, feel it

Playing you leaving, leaving
I still have to feel it, feel it
You're never gonna feel it, feel it
You're never gonna feel it, feel it
You're never gonna feel it, feel it
You're never gonna feel it, feel it