"The Gorge" lyrics
There's a gorge in the middle of the town
There's a pit in the center of my stomach
I'm upset, I
Can't ignore all the monsters in the ground
Can't afford to engage without sinking way on down
So I live in the space between
It feels like a held breath
It feels like I'm helpless
I'm hellbent, I
The thing 'bout surviving
Is nothing is promised
How bad do you want it
How bad do you
I, I
I don't want to feel
I want to fly, fly
Cross my heart I hope
Before I die I
Find a way of life
That I'm not
Pushing along
Like a beast of burden
You, you
Feel you in the center every day
Hold on to the memory
In every stomach ache
Pushing it all down
While I keep pulling away
Pull away like a beast of burden
And I get stuck between going on and giving up
And all my options are just different ways of getting fucked
Every loss is a new reason I don't fall in love
And all my loneliness it asks me if this is enough
And there's a part of me that asks me if I want the pain
There's a part of me that knows it wouldn't be the same
Death drive, life instinct at stalemate
Well too bad it's your time to step up to the plate
I, I
I don't want to feel
I want to fly, fly
Cross my heart I hope
Before I die I
Find a way of life
That I'm not
Pushing along
Like a beast of burden
You, you
Feel you in the center every day
Hold on to the memory
In every stomach ache
Pushing it all down
While I keep pulling away
Pull away like a beast of burden
Ooh how do I open
I've been so closed off
I close all the curtains
Close all the blinds
Can't let the light in
Can't let them see me
They can't see me like this
Can't be me 'round them
I'm done always fighting
Follow my instinct
To every demise and
I fuck it all up every time
Even further
I love you more every day
For what it's worth oh
I, I
I don't want to feel
I want to fly, fly
Cross my heart I hope
Before I die I
Find a way of life
That I'm not
Pushing along
Like a beast of burden
You, you
Feel you in the center every day
Hold on to the memory
In every stomach ache
Pushing it all down
While I keep pulling away
Pull away like a beast of burden
There's a pit in the center of my stomach
I'm upset, I
Can't ignore all the monsters in the ground
Can't afford to engage without sinking way on down
So I live in the space between
It feels like a held breath
It feels like I'm helpless
I'm hellbent, I
The thing 'bout surviving
Is nothing is promised
How bad do you want it
How bad do you
I, I
I don't want to feel
I want to fly, fly
Cross my heart I hope
Before I die I
Find a way of life
That I'm not
Pushing along
Like a beast of burden
You, you
Feel you in the center every day
Hold on to the memory
In every stomach ache
Pushing it all down
While I keep pulling away
Pull away like a beast of burden
And I get stuck between going on and giving up
And all my options are just different ways of getting fucked
Every loss is a new reason I don't fall in love
And all my loneliness it asks me if this is enough
And there's a part of me that asks me if I want the pain
There's a part of me that knows it wouldn't be the same
Death drive, life instinct at stalemate
Well too bad it's your time to step up to the plate
I, I
I don't want to feel
I want to fly, fly
Cross my heart I hope
Before I die I
Find a way of life
That I'm not
Pushing along
Like a beast of burden
You, you
Feel you in the center every day
Hold on to the memory
In every stomach ache
Pushing it all down
While I keep pulling away
Pull away like a beast of burden
Ooh how do I open
I've been so closed off
I close all the curtains
Close all the blinds
Can't let the light in
Can't let them see me
They can't see me like this
Can't be me 'round them
I'm done always fighting
Follow my instinct
To every demise and
I fuck it all up every time
Even further
I love you more every day
For what it's worth oh
I, I
I don't want to feel
I want to fly, fly
Cross my heart I hope
Before I die I
Find a way of life
That I'm not
Pushing along
Like a beast of burden
You, you
Feel you in the center every day
Hold on to the memory
In every stomach ache
Pushing it all down
While I keep pulling away
Pull away like a beast of burden
