"Dusty" lyrics

I can't forget you if I tried
I'm doing great, but that's a lie
I wanna touch you one more time
I wish your hand was holding mine
I woke up with you next to me
But I think it was just a dream
Or was it my memory?
I miss your voice, it's killing me

I'm giving up
I'm not enough
I'm done falling in love
I'm always fucking up
We're on-and-off, we're on-and-off

God, please kill me, I wanna feel something
I've put too much of my trust in You
You're nowhere to be found
Eyes looking, nothing but dust
I've never felt so down
My lungs start turning to rust
I had a heart, but it died your slave
It's hard watching everyone leave

I'm a vagrant, but I can't change it
I'm slowly climbing out, I can't sustain this
You're walking out, I'm sulking in
All of your walls are paper-thin

There's a ghost in my room
It's just me without you
Gazing down my shoes
But that's all I can do
I'm trying hard to stay awake
Pulling apart, again and again, 'til I break

Off-and-on, we're off-and-on
'Til one day, I decide we're done
Off-and-on, we're off-and-on
'Til one day, I decide we're done