"clip my wings." lyrics

Blurred lines
Every time I close my eyes
As life ticks by
All I hear is white lies
In a somber setting
Cemented in time
Nobody tells you
Losing yourself
Is just a part of finding life

And I spent so much time hanging onto things
I wish I could have changed
But how much more of myself
Could I have given you?
But how much more of myself
Could I have given you?

So kill me please, I'm begging this time
Perpetually addicted to the high
Living is easier when I'm numb
Distract from the fact that I'm losing everyone I love
I latch on to distractions to pass the time

All that makes me feel less than you
See the light that leaves my eyes set and my high-functioning depression, an
Illness that stole my independence, I felt the burn of every single injection

Romanticized all that makes me anxious and I can't fake this
This need for permanence
Will a time ever come where I won't be reliant
To which might end up killing me?

So kill me please, I'm begging this time
Perpetually addicted to the high
Living is easier when I'm numb
Distract from the fact that I'm
I latch on to distractions to pass the time

How much more of myself should I have given you?
I spent years pouring myself into this
Love is not enough
But that's always how it goes
Losing parts of what I used to know
You're somebody else now
A stranger I know everything about
I refuse again to let my guard down
This is where it ends

Love is not enough to survive on