"Lavender Daughter" lyrics

I'm not a forgiver
I cry every winter
I sleep in your shadow
It only gets bigger
I bleed 'cause I'm heavy
I never was ready
If I'm being honest
I never learned to want this

I lay with them to prove
That he didn't break me
Swear that I'm trying
But I hate sex lately
I wanna be gentle
My words taste like metal
It's awful when it's over
I never got older

A scared little girl
Who still needs her daddy
My hands go down the jeans
Of men who treat me badly

It was all I had to offer
I'm still somebody's daughter
But you never saw me
For anything other
It's coming up Lavender
I like the ways I haven't hurt
Blood in the water
I'm still somebody's daughter

I want you to leave
And don't take me with you
I keep my bed vacant
I call it a house rule
I stare at the center
Of my fuck ups and flashbacks
Yes, it hurt that bad, bad

I wanna be radiant
I'm tired but I'm facing it
Self preservation
My sweet revelation

If it's all I have to offer
I'm still somebody's daughter
But you never saw me
For anything other
It's coming up Lavender
I like the ways I haven't hurt
Blood in the water
I'm still somebody's daughter
(Lavender)
I'm still somebody's daughter
(Lavender)

I'm not a forgiver
I made it through the winter
Fuck your remorse
Hope it only gets bigger
A mad little girl
Who still needs her daddy
Bury the gun
Or I'll never be happy

If it's all I have to offer
I'm still somebody's daughter
It's all I have to offer
I'm still somebody's daughter
It's all I have to offer
I'm still somebody's daughter
I'm still somebody's daughter
I'm still somebody's daughter

I'm still somebody
I'm still somebody
Blood in the water
I'm still somebody's daughter
I'm still somebody
I'm still somebody
Wake me when it's over
I wanna get older
I'm still somebody

Lavender
Lavender
Lavender
I'm coming up
Lavender
Lavender
Lavender
I'm coming up
Lavender