"Down" lyrics

I find myself in search of a reason to keep giving up
She's got the power to take my mind
I spend my days giving you my life
Right on the hour, I did it again
I'll buy you flowers, make up for sins
I'll keep to myself, in my head
I've seen this all before
I let it happen again

I feel the weight on my head
This life is bringin' me down
The sun is shinin' but I
I keep my mind in the clouds
Or am I just underwater
Helpless, waiting to drown?
And who is that in the mirror?
I don't recognize the person I've become

I'm not the person I used to be
Is that somebody you can love?
I'm not the person that I want to be
You should run far from me
And never turn your head back
Every second I am worrying
About the fantasy I make up
Like how I'm so sure that you want to leave
How could you fall for me?
I'm not the only one for you

In fact, I bet you'll find a lie
Between each tooth
Behind my eyes
God only knows the things I hide
The words I don't speak
The lines I ride
Though every moment will pass me by
I keep my grip on the wheel held tight
My will to last, my drive to thrive
Will dissipate right before your eyes

I feel the weight on my head
This life is bringin' me down
The sun is shinin' but I
I keep my mind in the clouds
Or am I just underwater
Helpless, waiting to drown?
And who is that in the mirror?
I don't recognize the person I've become

I feel the weight on my head
This life is bringin' me down
The sun is shinin' but I
I keep my mind in the clouds
Or am I just underwater
Helpless, waiting to drown?
And who is that in the mirror?
I don't recognize the person I've become