"Roses In My Backpack" lyrics

Hey, oh I've lost everything close to me
All those memories haunt me to this day
But I'm coming to terms that I'm better off dead
People don't care if it's left unsaid
I want out more than anything
I'm on the verge of a forgotten casualty

No home, no friends, no family
I'm losing everything
And everyday's the same with the sadness I bring

These are the hardest years I've ever faced through
To feel this pulse each day
It's a curse that I'm still awake
Nothing could help set me free
But the thought to hang myself from the tallest tree
Today

Ever get that funny feeling that you'll die alone someday?
Ever love someone so much but they don't feel the same?
I let go, and now I'm alone
Is this how it all ends with a barrel in my mouth again?
Is this my only exit?

These are the hardest years I've ever faced through
To feel this pulse each day
It's a curse that I'm still awake
Nothing could help set me free
But the thought to hang myself from the tallest tree
Today

And hey, oh I've lost every fucking thing close to me
Even those memories still haunt me to this day
And if I only could forget it all
I just have to run away
Will I run away?
I guess I'll run away

These are the hardest years I've ever faced through
To feel this pulse each day
It's a curse that I'm still awake
But I'm not awake from those dreams of drowning, sinking below the sea
I'll be free