"In The Shadow Of Who You Thought I Was" lyrics

I'm going to need a ladder, I'm going to need a friend
Because I have been digging deeper since I was a kid
The mounting losses depth is over my head
But I'll keep climbing until I find the hope that's left

Depression is haunting and I'm not ok
Everything is going to be alright
Is just a thing people that don't know say
I'm lost and worried and I feel afraid
Of all of the things that are inside my head
That I have been far too ashamed to say
But I want to get better, I want to change

What I once thought was an anchor was a weight
I defined myself by others thoughts and others praise
I've lost a little more of myself everyday
Now I'm sinking and I so badly need to be saved

Depression is haunting and I'm not ok
Everything is going to be alright
Is just a thing people that don't know say
I'm lost and worried and I feel afraid
Of all of the things that are inside my head
That I have been far too ashamed to say
But I want to get better, I want to change

With each setting sun a little more is gone
And I can't go on living in the shadow of who you thought I was
Where do I start? My eyes swell with my beating heart
And now I'm ready to be lured
Out of the water until I'm gasping on the shore

Depression is haunting and I'm not ok
Everything is going to be alright
Is just a thing people that don't know say
I'm lost and worried and I feel afraid
Of all of the things that are inside my head
That I have been far too ashamed to say
But I want to get better, I want to change