"Treadless" lyrics

I'm treadless and spinning
I just don't know where I should begin

What started out as a terrible lie
Grew and grew and multiplied
I'm not even sure who's behind this disguise
But it's someone I don't recognize

Help me find myself
I've spent so long wishing that I was someone else
I've wanted to get better everyday since I was a kid
It's still so fucking sad, isn't it?
That I never did

There was no stillness after the wake
The waves are crashing more today
I'm drifting further, I'm farther away
What's left is slowly eroding with each crest as it breaks

Help me find myself
I've spent so long wishing that I was someone else
I've wanted to get better everyday since I was a kid
It's still so fucking sad, isn't it?
That I never did

I never told my dad that I wished I was dead
Just one of those talks that we never had
So I just laid awake, haunted, afraid
Praying for help...
I never told my dad that I wished I was dead
Just one of those talks that we never had
So I just laid awake, haunted, afraid
Praying for help that never fucking came

Pick me up, pull me in
Pick me up, pull me in
Pick me up, pull me in
I don't know what I have but what's left I will give
Pick me up, pull me in
Pick me up, pull me in
Pick me up, pull me in
I don't know what I have but what's left I will give