"A Late Apology" lyrics

Stuck in a small town, not enough around
And everybody knows your name
But not in the way I want them to
'Cause I don't wanna be anything like you
Everyone's too scared to get up and leave you
There's somethin' 'bout a quiet life
That really never felt like mine
God damn, I think it's time

To tell my mom I'm gonna live with dad
Ruin a relationship we never had
'Cause what you never had, no, you can't miss that
It don't work like that

You might think I'm runnin' away
And that's okay, I'll take the blame
'Cause if I don't, then I won't change
I've lost what I've meant to lose
Don't make the children pick and choose
But I had to
Ask myself if I'm livin' for me or you

Left my family in their house on the east coast
Now my bedroom walls are haunted with my ghost
Eleven years old, thinkin' that she knows it all, she don't
Please forgive all my mistakes
But they were mine to make
Still hurts to be so brave

You might think I'm runnin' away
And that's okay, I'll take the blame
'Cause if I don't, then I won't change
I've lost what I've meant to lose
Don't make the children pick and choose
But I had to
Ask myself if I'm livin' for me or you

I don't think, when they met, this was the life that they'd get
And I'm sorry, can you forgive me?
For putting you through Hell just so I'd help myself
I'm so sorry
At least we lived to tell the story

I'm sorry for runnin' away
Hope that's okay because today
I made a life from all our pain
I've lost what I've meant to lose
Never meant to make you pick and choose
But I had to
Ask myself if I'm livin' for me or you