"This Time" lyrics

The start of the journey, I thought was the hardest
Made a few songs about pain in my heart
And couldn't imagine they way that they harbor
Feelings around me, they never had scarred up
Waking up knowing I'm trying to be Carter
Man on a mission, I gotta go harder
Take every weight of my plate and go farther
Flying ahead like I'm booking a charter
Started to feel like we finally was making
Some kind of difference from words that we painted
That's when it crumbled in front of my eyes
I ain't know what to do, I just wanted to hide
Anger had started to build in my mind
How could I run when I know how to fight?
Stand up for those who ain't got it themselves
And go show 'em be special and how to prevail

You the only one I can't get out my mind
I know it's over, but I don't know how to go this time
You the only one I can't get back, so I
Hope it's over when I go home and I close my eyes

You was the one I put all of my faith in
All of my troubles and all of my patience
Wonder how easy it was just to waste it
Wanted the power you felt, I can taste it
Sometimes I wonder who causing this pain
'Cause everyone suffer ain't suffer the same
Like I got it back and I swear it's amazing
Someone's still out there who's broken and caged in
And you the cause of that pain outside, no shame, no loss on display
Lost a lot on my way I see right through the cost of my days
Now that's what I see when I look at your corpse
A bully who try out and fell on his sword
A savage who lurking and cursing the poor
I can't fathom the fire you feel in your core 'cause

You the only one I can't get out my mind
I know it's over, but I don't know how to go this time
You the only one I can't get back, so I
Hope it's over when I go home and I close my eyes