"escape" lyrics

Breathe in, go slow
Stay in control
Sit down and I say it hurts but I'm okay
Cause he took something from me that day
Something that cannot be replaced
I keep it close
No one can know

Don't take it slow
Just take me home
Make me forget
All of it
Cause I could try to run away
But some things you just can't escape
And you'll try but you can't understand

You change the rules
I play it cool
And just like a child, I'm terrified
And I can barely fall asleep
But the daydreams are what's haunting me
Stay or change, it all hurts the same

Try to find some peace
But it's everything, it's all of me
I wish I could tell you I really wouldn't kill myself
Looking at a blade thinking maybe it could be my escape

I keep the score
Everything you ignored
I lock it tight
I swear I hate the light
Sometimes I think to myself
That I should probably burn in hell
Father please
Have some mercy on me

Have some mercy on me