"white out" lyrics

I say yes, yes, yes
'Til I'm sick and I say no
Cause my body's breaking down
And I'm ignoring my own soul
Turn the lights out on the porch
So it looks like no ones home
And I'm sitting with my shadow
But I'd rather be alone

Cause
Left to my own devices
I will tear me down
I'll let the snow keep falling
Swallow up my sound
What's wrong with finding refuge
In the white out

I'm in the backyard searching for silence
Ignoring the sirens screaming by
Moving with caution
I follow my footprints
Back to the place I said I wanted to die
Am I still here
Tapping the glass on the mirror
I'm not lost well I don't know
Let's say I'm taking the long way home

I put my darkest thoughts on ice
Watch them drift out on the water
I forget the things that weigh me down
Can float within another time and space
I'm missing days
You can see it on my face
I'm so sorry that I'm checking out
And pushing you away

Cause
Left to my own devices
I will tear me down
I'll let the snow keep falling
Swallow up my sound
What's wrong with finding refuge
In the white out

I'm in the backyard searching for silence
Ignoring the sirens screaming by
Moving with caution
I follow my footprints
Back to the place I said I wanted to die
Am I still here
Tapping the glass on the mirror
I'm not lost well I don't know
Let's say I'm taking the long way home
Taking the long way home
Taking the long way home
Taking the long way home