"so numb it hurts" lyrics

Baby
I need to know
If I could stand my heart til
I might be the numbness on a repeat

Yeah, get too numb, my heart is in pieces
You talk shit, complain for no reason
All these feelings I gotta keep in
Said you loved me, you do not mean it
Hatred; you hiding
You cursing; I'm crying
Not dead but I'm dying
Inside with no sirens
I'm knocked out my heart and outside is a giant
Who picks me apart and then leaves me in silence

You gotta watch it, I'm too unstable
I gotta stop it, can't live these fables
Say that I'm toxic
With my hand in my pocket
Leaving me with no options
But to break this table
Six months in, got a bruise and such
Everybody goes mad when you're too in love
I gotta work on myself, should be moving up
But in a small world, there's only two of us

Baby
I need to know
If I could strained my heart till
I'ma be the numbness on a peak

All my days get longer
Nights get colder
Got a brand-new devil up on my shoulder
No angels here, with no light to show ya
How am I too weak to meet your quota
It's a process
Why do I listen to all the gossip
Not yet
Maybe I'm thinking that we could prosper
Not sure
Maybe you're better without a partner
My heart hurts
Why does it feel like we're taking sharp turns
Fuck it tho
I know reality is opposite from all the feelings that leave when I'm off of it
Make over relations
That stay in my basement
It's hard to look down when you live in necropolis

You're not really mine
I'm not really yours
Who's feeling worse?
We're so numb it hurts

Baby
I need to know
If I could strained my heart till
I'ma be the numbness on a peak