"gospel of scott" lyrics

Couldn't tell you what's up or down, right or wrong
Every day feel like twilight zone
Wanna see dad but I can't go home

Couldn't tell what's love or hate, truth or lies
All the things that money can buy
With nothing to show and plenty to hide
Probably lock me up, if they heard my mind

Told me take some time, but I got way too much shit to handle
No shortage of pain whenever I need some shit to channel
They counting my wins, I'm burning both ends of the candle
Unconditional love? All I know is circumstantial

What you gonna do when they find out who you really are?
What you gonna do?
What you gonna do?
What you gonna do when they find out who you really are?

Stone-cold but I'm delicate
Every week, my wife we fight. She say I don't let her in
Probably got some fear of her really seeing how dead I am
Five years old in a tub with a man. Shit left me desolate
Fuck sex. Even with affection. Drugs a prerequisite
This shit get deeper than you'll ever know

So
Maybe next time you see me passed out on the floor
Just know
That I been fighting demons, yeah I been losing, but I ain't give up
Gotta count for something. Right?
Been spending my life tryna get through life
Do you know?
Do you know what it take to feel alright?
Can you understand, why I started to spike my "Sprite"?
Do it make sense now? Why every day I need to get high
Knowing my pain, can you blame me for tryna get by?
And if she leave, I wouldn't blame her for telling me "Bye"
'Cause I got so many things I'm 'a take to the grave
And I shed so many tears knowing that it ain't have to be this way
Maybe every song a cry for help
I'm living poorly but acquiring wealth
Priest told me I got a chance at dying well
Sold-out arenas feeling by myself
Since being together, she feel by herself
Would kill for you and I would die as well
I'm loving you the best way I know how
Been doing my all just to let you down
Stay under water like I begged to drown
Done left a bitch to keep my meds around
Missing my family like they can't be found
Then a voice get loud saying

What you gonna do when they find out who you really are?
What you gonna do?
What you gonna do?
What you gonna do when they find out who you really are?