"damned to walk the earth without the reason i'm alive" lyrics

What do I with your absence
You played it cool girl now always calm and collected
I miss all your snot, your tears on my chest
If was proof that you loved, you were
Glad that it happened
Was young, that's not an excuse but
I think a man could be born
In the moment he losses
The girl who's smile could light up the moon
I hate that it's you cause my nights have be ruined
I know

Heaven is a place you'll be (Place you'll be)
But I'm not gonna make it there
So you don't have to wait for me

Damned that I do everything wrong
Damn I didn't do the things I didn't do enough
Damned to be the guy you damn in every single song
Damn it I knew I shouldn't love someone

Damned to walk the earth without the reason I'm alive
Damn to still be thinking about you all the damn time
Damned to see myself the way you see me in your eyes
Damn if I knew I ever crossed your mind
I'd be just fine
(Damn damn damn damn damn damn damn)
(Damn damn damn damn damn damn damn)

I know that [?] was the season
But you were the pride and joy of the fighter's achievements
He spends every night, drunk at his desk
The magic is left cause he's trying to repeat it
I'm stuck in a wall like I'm typecast
You had a new mask on when you handed me mine back
Left with the plot of the shoe was in air
The star wasn't there and the crowd didn't like that I know

Heaven is a place you'll be
But I'm not gonna make it there
So you don't have to wait for me

Damned that I do everything wrong?
Damn I didn't do the things I didn't do enough
Damned to be the guy you damn in every single song
Damn it I knew I shouldn't love someone

Damned to walk the earth without the reason I'm alive
Damn I still be thinking about you all the damn time
Damned to see myself the way you see me in your eyes
Damn if I knew I ever crossed your mind
I'd be just fine
(Damn damn damn damn damn damn damn)
(Damn damn damn damn damn damn damn)