"if you wish i was someone else then how is this monogamy" lyrics

Heart is palpitating
You're perspectives changing
You like me when I'm out of the picture

Almost January, August felt like maybe
You'd, probably be done by December

And I can't be what you want from me
A self-fulfilling prophecy
If you wish I was someone else, then how is this monogamy?

I feel like you're waiting for a reason or a catalyst
Nothing that I ever do is good enough
Push me to the limit, and expect me to balance it
It's like you can't wait for me to ruin us
Everything I do is for your benefit
It's like my perspective is the only irrelevant baby
I was just a trial till you took to long to cancel it
I wish you could tell you fell out of love

Rearrange my psyche
Frankensteins you're liking
You treat my like you botched a procedure

Cut me, stitch me tightly
Will this heal? Unlikely
You treat yourself the same in the mirror

And I can't be what you want from me
A self-fulfilling prophecy
If you wish I was someone else, than how is this monogamy?

I feel like you're waiting for a reason or a catalyst
Nothing that I ever do is good enough
Push me to the, than expect me to balance it
It's like you can't wait for me to ruin us
Everything I do is for your benefit
It's like my perspective is the only irrelevant baby
I was just a trial till you took to long to cancel it
I wish you could tell you fell out of love