"Decay" lyrics

Can I rest my head?
On your shoulder for a moment?
I need to rest my head
It's getting harder to control it

I wrote my testament
Have my money, the car & home
Because I don't want it alone

I'm drowning in the rain, the rain, the rain
My bones all washed away, away, away
'Til the mud turns into clay
That's how deep I'm buried, deep I'm buried
Will the flowers rise in May?
To grow into new, the old you has to decay

I planned my funeral
Had the invites printed
Bought a pinstriped suit
All my farewells written

Suicide is a sin
'Cause I was raised as a Christian
But I lost every single thing
I worked for in an instant

(Listen)
Whose fault was that?
Tried blaming everyone beside myself for all the bad
I ignored every fucking warning sign along the path
Then act surprised when my car is crashed

Arm in a cast
The trauma doctor said I almost flatlined
Why didn't I die?
I was supposed to be known
Now they expose me online

I hired lawyers to erase what they were saying
I tried
But I was lying to myself
That everything would be fine

Lord, save me
Karma fucking played me
Cheated on every girl that I knew since I was 18
But it's time to change me
I just had a baby
It's time to be a real man for my little lady

I'm drowning in the rain, the rain, the rain
My bones all washed away, away, away
'Til the mud turns into clay
That's how deep I'm buried, deep I'm buried
Will the flowers rise in May?
To grow into new, the old you has to decay

I'm stuck
Laying in the muck
Maggots picking at me like I'm lunch
Yuck
No one gives a fuck
They wanna see me fail
I gotta bury every fucking enemy
Including myself

I said I'm stuck
Laying in the muck
Maggots picking at me like I'm lunch
Yuck
No one gives a fuck
They wanna see me fail
I gotta bury every fucking enemy
Including myself

I'm drowning in the rain, the rain, the rain
My bones all washed away, away, away
'Til the mud turns into clay
That's how deep I'm buried, deep I'm buried
Will the flowers rise in May?
To grow into new, the old you has to decay