"Wings" lyrics

Close my eyes 'cuz I hate what I see
I shut my mouth
I'm too nervous to speak
But my mama said I gotta leave the nest to be free
If I'm too scared to jump then what good are these wings?

I'm not a saint
First off my nails dipped in paint
Black as hell when it rains
But that'll never change
Gloomy 'til they put me in the grave
I'm in pain
Does anyone else feel the same?
Blacking out to escape
But that'll never change
Gloomy is the way I feel okay
Keep it grey
But before I sing another melody
And try to gain a couple pop kids
I'm talking to the lost kids
Whose mom gets her ass kicked by a drunk man
A step dad that swung hands
Upset 'cuz his football team lost
God

And now you gotta walk into your class
And try to act like you don't have a fucking dad
Who gets mad over nothing
And your friends think you're bluffing
'Cuz your parents have money
And you're white and middle class
Looking comfy
Funny

So instead of getting help
You try to medicate yourself
You saw some liquor on the shelf
So you drink it
What the fuck were you thinking?
You know your family has a problem with the bottle
Now because you had some trauma you decide to do it?
You're so stupid
What the fuck
You just use it to get rid of them
And now you're just as sick as them
And no one's gonna help you
Why the hell I tell you anything?
Just brush your teeth and clean the sink
And head to school before your dad hears you sing

Close my eyes 'cuz I hate what I see
I shut my mouth
I'm too nervous to speak
But my mama said I gotta leave the nest to be free
If I'm too scared to jump then what good are these wings?
What good are these wings?