"ad nauseam" lyrics

If you got a moment, I just got a question
How did everything end up this direction?
How do I end up a mess when you the one that fucked up?
I was good to you and you ducked, huh
You went and you all broke the trust, yeah
Need to take some time to adjust to
Feeling like you haunt me

Why's it gotta feel like you're everywhere I go?
Let it sink in, we're two different people
Can't escape it by switching different time zones
Self-help articles filling up my phone
And I'm still dreaming
I guess I was all that I needed
Fresh eyes Melo in '03, yeah
Maybe I just need to start believing

Out of order til I feel again, one in eight billion
I think I need thicker skin, yeah
Don't wake me up if I'm spinning
Replay the beginning
I wouldn't wait up all night waiting just for you to slide
I'd be on that, it's all an act
All the effort that you lacked
I want it all back, I want it all bad

Need help I'm feeling real low
My whole life playing real slow, yeah
In front of my eyes, but it's not my time
Needed a look inside my soul

Why's it gotta feel like you're everywhere I go?
Let it sink in, we're two different people
Can't escape it by switching different time zones
Self-help articles filling up my phone
And I'm still dreaming
I guess I was all that I needed
Fresh eyes Melo in '03, yeah
Maybe I just need to start believing

Tell me how I grow if you're never leaving me alone
Swear I hear your voice everywhere I go
I still miss the way that you said "Hello"
Got me going crazy, turning hell into a home
And how could I forget? Think you the best I ever did?
You had me fucked up, now I ain't tripping bout it
I tripped and doubted myself, my own hell
And made my way up out it
Thought I was going crazy

Why's it gotta feel like you're everywhere I go?
Let it sink in, we're two different people
Can't escape it by switching different time zones
Self-help articles filling up my phone
And I'm still dreaming
I guess I was all that I needed
Fresh eyes Melo in '03, yeah
Maybe I just need to start believing