"hold back" lyrics

Staying at home
Waiting alone
Probably too scared to go outside
Losing control
Seven days, twenty-four hours
Think I'm out of my mind

And I feel like a stranger to myself
In danger
I break from the weight
Drift with the waves like a glacier

Get lost in the moment
Feel something real like I belong
Lately feels like a dream
Memories keeping me hanging on

I don't wanna hold back, I already have
Tired of everyone telling me who I am
And it feels like my own conspiracy
Like everybody's out to get me
Don't wanna hold back, don't think that I can
Tired of everyone dragging me through the past
And it feels like my own conspiracy
Like everybody's out to get me

Do I stay, do I go
Gotta change, gotta grow
I'ma live like it's borrowed time
I just want you to know
That I don't care anymore
Do anything to feel alive

Frayed out from the sedative
Sorry, I put you on blast and it's true
If I said it I meant it
You came and you left
I felt crazy but now that it's done

I don't wanna hold back, I already have
Tired of everyone telling me who I am
And it feels like my own conspiracy
Like everybody's out to get me
Don't wanna hold back, don't think that I can
Tired of everyone dragging me through the past
And it feels like my own conspiracy
Like everybody's out to get me

Get lost in the moment
Feel something real like I belong
But lately feels like a dream
Memories keeping me hanging on

I don't wanna hold back, I already have
Tired of everyone telling me who I am
And it feels like my own conspiracy
Like everybody's out to get me
Don't wanna hold back, don't think that I can
Tired of everyone dragging me through the past
And it feels like my own conspiracy
Like everybody's out to get me

Yeah, yeah, like everybody's out to get me