"Dissociate" lyrics

So call me crazy, but nothing feels the same anymore
My vision's hazy, my highs got me down on the floor
I'm dissolving, disconnect from who I thought were my friends
I can't remember, I'm too busy playing pretend (Pretend, pretend, pretend)
I'm watching paint dry, looking from outside
I blur my eyesight, poor circulation, getting frostbite
Wave at my face before I lose time, lose time
Wave at my face before I lose time, lose time

I disassociate, tell you everything's fine
I'd rather starve than take the pain
And put my heart on the line

Put my heart on the line (On the line)
Put my heart on the line (On the line)
Put my heart on the line (On the line)
Put my heart on the line (On the line)
Put my heart on the line (On the line)
Put my heart on the line (On the line)
Put my heart on the line (On the line)
And put my heart on the line (On the line)

Part of the furniture, that you'll never sit in
If I didn't stand out, I'd know I'd never fit in
Cause I'm weird and I talk too loud
Long sentences, I'm in the clouds
Then pop a pill to keep me down
It's better if I'm not around
I might as well be uninvited
Vibes are off, it's unrequited
It's like watching myself through the third person
Every fuck up right as it happens
I suffocate in silence, it's violence
Choke on my words, swallow my thoughts
You should try it
Stuck on the ceiling, staring down at my body
Maladaptive day dream, no one can stop me
Alone in bittersweet euphoria
Solidarity feels so familiar

I disassociate, tell you everything's fine
I'd rather starve than take the pain
And put my heart on the line
I disassociate, tell you everything's fine
Rather starve than take the pain
And put my heart on the line

Disassociate
Disassociate
Disassociate
Disassociate

I disassociate, tell you everything's fine (Ennaria?)
I'd rather starve than take the pain (Disassociate)
And put my heart on the line