"Dysmorphia" lyrics

Staring back at my reflection, looking at me makes me nauseous
Faking pretty's so exhausting, imperfections got me throwing up
Begging you to think I'm gorgeous, who am I without perception?
My inner workings an exception, without the looks I know you'd give me up
Oversized sweaters, hide my features
But I still feel where my waist ends
My own prying eyes, I can't escape them
Silence the static drowning in the basement

All the ways that I learned to hate me
Starving for love on empty calories
I know they would walk straight past me
If not for manufactured beauty
Oh, dysmorphia's gonna kill me

You can't hate me more than I hate myself
Fuck you, pay me for the body I built
Weighing on me, the lighter I get, the heavier I feel
To escape this cage, I'll do whatever I can
Carve flesh off my bones just like ham
Tear my stomach to bits, squeeze my muscles to jam
Tear out my eyes so I can't see what I am

All the ways that I learned to hate me
Starving for love on empty calories
I know they would walk straight past me
If not for manufactured beauty
Oh, dysmorphia's gonna kill me

You'll never feel my pain, yet you still call me vain
My pain, yet you still call me vain
For every Heaven there's a Hell
Treating the shower like a cell
I couldn't tell you how it felt
Can't bear the feeling of myself
Feeling the bones under my skin
I tear the flesh off of my ribs
I drain my entrails down the sink
Is this all I'm made of?

I'd die for a taste of a lack of self-loathing
Maybe then I'll like what lies under my clothing (Is this all I'm made of?)

I'd die, I'd die, I'd die, I'd die
I'd die, I'd die, I'd die, I'd die
Is this all I'm made of?