"TRAUMA" lyrics

I got traumas that I run from
Can't let go of all the pain
And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I'll be fine
I want someone who cares to tell me that I'm alright
But I'm breaking
Hard to deal with what I'm facing
And you know my heart's been racing
Got too many pills I'm taking, taking

Inside, yeah, I keep it inside
I bottle emotions and swallow my pride
I'm just fillin' the void with money, cars, and drugs
And the women I love, they're just usin' me up, like
It's hard to be sane when everybody wanna try me
Friends switch up, now I know they never liked me
Been too many times that I'm fallin' out the deep end
Lonely vibes 'cause I'm fallin' out of sequence

I'm runnin' too fast, but I don't know why
Even with this cash, I can't get by
Everybody talk, they don't know my life
But I still try

I got traumas that I run from
Can't let go of all the pain
And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I'll be fine
I want someone who cares to tell me that I'm alright
But I'm breaking
Hard to deal with what I'm facing
And you know my heart's been racing
Got too many pills I'm taking, taking

I carry on, but it's so exhausting
Dead friends and family haunt me
Barely living, I feel like a zombie
I feel invisible, nobody wants me
I ruined everything and I know it's all my fault
How can I change when I got these obstacles?
It's all in my brain, I got depression in my skull
Just want to escape, but it feels impossible

Runnin' too fast, but I don't know why
Even with this cash, I can't get by
Everybody talk, they don't know my life
But I still try

I got traumas that I run from
Can't let go of all the pain
And I just want someone to show me, tell me that I'll be fine
I want someone who cares to tell me that I'm alright
But I'm breaking
Hard to deal with what I'm facing
And you know my heart's been racing
Got too many pills I'm taking, taking