"a boy whistling in the graveyard" lyrics

You did good, sire

They said I died but I didn't see no light
All this darkness
All these demons
Hope these Percs gonna get me right
I keep reaching my hand out hoping that drank gone hold me tight
I keep getting my heart broke hoping that she gone love me, sike
Blacked out on another flight

Right back where I started, yeah, spilling my heart out on the mic
I can't figure this out. No. I don't see no end in sight
Filling my veins up with that shit, took a trip to paradise
They couldn't help me if they wanted, guess I'll go and talk to Christ

Thinking about my brother and I'm wondering if he thinking of me
Last time that I seen him he was dead, since then I ain't sleep
Is this shit my fault?
Did I leave him?
What could I done different
They say that I'm blessed but I'm failing to see what the gift is

Riding by my lonely
Thinking about my family
Dreaming about their love
Don't give a fuck 'bout Grammies
Don't give a fuck 'bout money
Don't give a fuck 'bout bitches
Don't give a fuck 'bout none of that shit
None of it don't mean shit to me

Take a look at my history
Wondering why trust hard to find
Blank stares when we face to face
Hard to tell you what's on my mind
Want to, but I can't cry ay
Want to, but I can't lie ay
I just gotta get high 'cause I'm too busy to die

Take a look at what I've become
Wondering was it really worth it?
Bro just sent me a text, maybe he's right
Maybe I didn't earn it
Tell me what's my purpose and why, why do I deserve it
Crashing out the Rolls show these pussies how to really swerve it

Tell my dad it won't be long 'til I get home but that's a lie
Feeling like Weezy in 07 I'm so high I feel like dying
Been like 20 years since the last time that I felt alive
Preacher looked in my eyes
Said, "Damn, boy. You're dead inside."

They said I died but I didn't see no light
All this darkness
All these demons
Hope these Percs gonna get me right
I keep reaching my hand out hoping that drank gone hold me tight
I keep getting my heart broke hoping that she gone love me, sike
Blacked out on another flight

Right back where I started, yeah, spilling my heart out on the mic
I can't figure this out. No. I don't see no end in sight
Filling my veins up with that shit, took a trip to paradise
They couldn't help me if they wanted, guess I'll go and talk to Christ