"who saves the savior" lyrics

Everybody tryna save me what the fuck is there worth saving?
Touch that holy water start to burn up like I'm Satan
You could never hate me like I hate me that's a fucking promise
Beg my mom and dad for once just please please get honest with me

Walking 'round with my back knifed
Praying to a glass pipe
Chewing fentanyl wishing that it be my last bite
Mentally I'm suffering
Emotions that I struggle with
Is feeling that I'm not enough from trauma when I was a kid

I'm shedding tears as I'm singing this
Blow my head off and ID me with a finger print
Am I everything you dreamed of me as a kid?
Reduced to broken pieces just to play with as you wish

No

I'm so sick of fucking faking
Taking medication
Only time I feel okay

Just stay the fuck away
Stay the fuck away
Stay the fuck away
Stay the fuck away

Throwing money at my problems
This here a new bottom
Promises of change
Paint my face with looks of solemn
Straight Ls in my column
Back to back to back to back
Have you ever loved someone
But way to fucking scared to get attached

Feelings of abandonment
Always fail to manage it
Dress it up with diamond chains
Money, hoes, and mansion cribs

Way to scared to have a kid
Could I even handle it?
Always dreaming of it
'Til my family bring me back to here

Right here in this moment
Hey it's me the doormat
Been blessed with all this shit
Just to not even enjoy it

No

I don't wanna go on anymore
Life been so different since my paw paw left this world
I often wonder if he's proud and I'm not sure
Who could love what I've become I'm sure no one