"thought that you should know" lyrics

I been somewhere up the road again
Thinking 'bout my mistakes
Tryna not get high
But I don't think I got what it takes

Maybe this here my fate
Losing and finding my place
Just tell God ima be late
'Fore I go, gotta see your face

Baby, I thought that you should know that I know you tried
Hard to keep your eyes dry when you're slowly watch me die
Baby, I thought that you should know that I can't give you much
I was told my whole life that I never would be enough

Cigarette burns and ash
Life going by too fast
They don't see me
They see cash
Heart broke stuck in a
Heart broke stuck in a cast
I'm in a constant search
All I wanted was to feel happy but all I got was hurt
Mix me a Xan with the Perc
27. Feeling like Kurt
Codeine ain't quenching my thirst
Too scared of what's coming next
Yeah. They all love me at my best
But tell me, could you love me at my worst?
Every time they get a glimpse of me
They walk away thinking I'm cursed
This ain't real life, this work
Would you love me without the mask?
Would you love me without the cash?
Would you love me for who I am?
Don't judge me for where I've been
I won't lie it's been a long road
I been tweaking off a bad bend but I will never fold
Walking up to some more bullshit
Gun on me. I'm 'bout to use it
They do not believe ima die young
Guess ima have to prove it
Counting that guap bitter-sweet
I got a whole on my mind
Done been to the dog
Done been to the preacher
Still there ain't shit I could find
I put my heart on a sleeve
They put a knife in my back
Can't sleep my insomnia back
Them demons controlling my mind
I down lost count of the times
They turned on me on a dime
So it's only on me I rely
Lord, I'm looking for something divine
Tell me how do I talk to God
When I feel so unworthy
Tell me how do I talk to God
When I'm fucked up an slurring
Baby, will you still love me?
'Cause I don't think I'm gon' change
Survivor's guilt mixed with fame
All the young die where I hang

I been somewhere up the road again
Thinking 'bout my mistakes
Tryna not get high
But I don't think I got what it takes

Maybe this here my fate
Losing and finding my place
Just tell God ima be late
'Fore I go, gotta see your face

Baby, I thought that you should know that I know you tried
Hard to keep your eyes dry when you're slowly watch me die
Baby, I thought that you should know that I can't give you much
I was told my whole life that I never would be enough