"the future only stings once" lyrics

Never understand my father
'Til I became my father
Never understand my mother
'Til I loved someone just like her

Running away from my problems
Too emotional, I just wanna go
Family drama in the forums
Brother begging for me, had to let him go

Used to think my daddy picked the drugs over me
Took my own battle with them drugs just to see
Took my battle with trauma just to understand my mamma
Insert here some dollars
Some unfamiliar problems

But no
My bottom went lower
Then ducking out midday on the sofa
Past out of town I was out of reach
On a 10 count I was out at 3
Looking in my eyes
See a broken boy
Wouldn't-make-it boy
See-we-told-you boy

Begging, pleading to my brothers
Be anything but me
All the fame
Smoke and mirrors for the grief
Diamonds chains
Persona names
Sold-out shows
I hear the craze
Screaming, "Grey!"
Still, I feel alone
Feel like I don't belong
Drugs in my carry-on
To help me carry on
Can't figure out what's wrong
Please, don't hang up the phone
Don't hang up the phone

It's killing me to watch you go
Right back down the same road
Feel like I'm going insane whoa
Please, just tell me bro