"a nightmare worth pursuing" lyrics

You did good, $lick
It's a smash
Sorry, lonely boy

I been going through some changes
Searching, looking for the truth
Gotta be God working through me, I'm doing shit I couldn't do
Saying shit I couldn't say
Money come, give it away
Know we all headed to the grave
I'm just tryna go a different way

Think mamma popped one too many, can't understand what she texting
Break my heart when I read the comments, some fans thinking I left them
But they don't know
Even as I glow
I'm still fighting depression
I was told, "Either grow or die." Now, tryna live my obsession

Still questioning if I do enough
Insecure. Can't stand to hear my own voice unless I tune it up
At this point, be quicker to name who ain't suing us
Their bad days are my bad days, and got the nerve to tell me, "Boy, loosen up."

Shut the fuck up
Fuck

Every song made out of self-doubt
More confused that I'm on the stage, people listen like I got it figured out
Feeling homeless with the biggest house
Spit the pain poets written 'bout
Getting money that I dreamt about
Love come with interest, they just lenders now

Damn

Advice coming from my father-in-law
Telling me to put my armor on
The evil coming the more you talk about God
Damn

Lord, I'm praying that you give me strength
I'm not worthy to come through the gates
Take for granted every breath I take

Lord, I pray you give me peace of mind
But, right now, I'm on demon time
Lord, I pray you give me peace of mind
But, right now, I'm on demon time

Chopper on me ya, ya, ya
Bodies dropping ya, ya, ya
Mamma's sobbing ya, ya, ya
Uh, uh

Baller blocking ya, ya, ya
Scheming, plotting ya, ya, ya
Time to lock in ya, ya, ya

Lonely boy, I'm going Steve Jones
Lonely boy, blacked-out all-chrome
Lonely boy like my friends gone
Fuck a bitch, hoes get friend-zoned

Hearse boy, getting my dead on
'Bout time I get right, I'm dead wrong
Loose screws no getting my head on
Ya, ya

Popped a Perc, I thought it was an Advil
AK ripping shit up like a tantrum
Undisputed, Usyk Alexander

Pop out just to let 'em take a gander
Young cracker, brothers call me "phantom"
Unc balling like I'm Adam Sandler

Bought a Lamb' to let my brother flaunt it
Pupils pinned, my body's screaming, "Haunted!"
Turn the fuck up when I get exhausted

They couldn't afford what the fuck it cost me
Family crying 'cause they know they lost me
Pieces of me die with every coffin

So, fuck it everybody 'bout to get hit
Fuck it everybody die, die, die, die
Going out like cooper, I'm going interstellar, we past getting high, high, high, high
Runaway boy, bye, bye, bye, bye
Another day more lie, lie, lie, lies
Mo'fuck these demons I'm sticking my tongue out lie
Ah, ah, ah

All I have is nightmares, nightmares, nightmares
All I have is nightmares, nightmares, nightmares
All I have is nightmares, nightmares, nightmares
All I have is nightmares, nightmares, nightmares

Body feeling fucked-up, bitch I might just die
Cross tatted on my face, devil still up in my eyes
Broke out the asylum, popping pills until I'm unalived
Baby, cut the fucking lights off, don't want you to see me cry

Don't want you to view me different
Demons tryna break my spirit
All them voices. You don't hear it?
I can't let 'em know I fear it
I can't let 'em know I'm scared
I can't show 'em that I care
Product of that trauma when you grow up with nobody there

Think I'm losing it, think I'm losing it
Picking up my cross like "How the fuck was Jesus moving this?"
Think I'm losing it, think I'm losing it
If I don't pop these pills my brain won't stop until I'm shooting it

You know, I remember digging like a hole in my backyard
I was gonna go to China, you know? I was gonna run away to China
Just diggin' this hole, I think I gave up like eight feet down
Put some cardboard on top, it made a cool fort, but, uh
You know, I remember like gettin' my first Huffy bike
I had this neon-green Huffy bike
And I remember, like, being like maybe 11 and
Maybe even younger than that, just taking off
You know just, just, just taking off and
There used to be this laundromat down the street, it was far, and I used to just take off, I remember being like 10, 11 and
Being on my bike, I felt like I could go anywhere, you know
Didn't matter what was going on, I could just fuckin' take off
And then, uh, I remember climbing rooftops and, like jumping on other peoples roofs and stuff like that, you know?